Nine Months

It's so hard to believe that our little angel baby would be 9 months old today.  It seems like just yesterday we were on cloud 9 as we welcomed our third precious boy into the world...and then so quickly after, were kissing him goodbye.  I remember everything about those few precious days that we had Caleb in our lives like it was yesterday -- from the highest highs to the lowest lows.  There isn't a moment that goes by that we aren't missing everything about him and longing for what should have been.  One of the hardest things is feeling like he is being forgotten in the world us, and trying to do everything I can to make sure his little life is still remembered, honored, and celebrated.  It hurts when you have someone in your heart, but can't have them in your arms.  And although it will never be enough, I like to think my heart is perfect because Caleb is inside.